So, do you think this becoming 50 thing is bothering me? I mean, I keep saying that I'm not that kind of girl. Yet, I find the topic creeping into my thoughts more often than I care to admit. I keep bringing it up at an embarrassingly astonishing rate. It doesn't seem to matter to anyone else. Well, except my father. On New Year's Eve, as we were driving to mass, he said "I can't believe you are going to be 50." "Don't remind me", I bristled. To that, he responded--"how do you think I feel? I'm your father! And, remember--your mother and I had you late in life!" I guess he has a point there. Complaining to my 88 year old father that I'm getting old...not a very nice thing to do....especially on the way to mass.
As a favor to myself and my blogger friends, I'm going to take the day off from whining about this age thing. I've got lots of other things to do! For instance, I have stacks of china, wine glasses,gold flatware and pots and pans that need washed by hand waiting for me in my kitchen. There's a pile of dirty linens on the dining room table. And, the fridge is stuffed with foil covered leftovers and half-filled bottles of wine. The remnants of yet another holiday dinner. Oh, how these holidays do me in....! As much as I love to see them come, I'm happy to see them go. By the time I serve my last meal event of the season--New Year's Day--I think I've managed to prepare every type of meat, vegetable and starch known to mankind, I've washed every food vessel in my home at least a dozen times and I've swept up enough crumbs to feed the population of Rhode Island. Perhaps I'm not bothered by this age thing at all. Maybe I'm just exhausted....
Whatever it is that's got me being unJudilike this morning and caused me to be queen bitch last night (after my guests left, of course), I need a sure fire anecdote. I need a shift in my thinking and a little brightness in my outlook. Because this woe is me stuff and crankiness just won't do. It's messing with my attitude and probably contributing to more fine lines and wrinkles. So, as I wash those dishes and scrub those pots and rub those spots off the flatware--I'm going to ponder my options on how to turn things around. I have a new year to deal with and I have my next act to get ready for. I need to get it right.....
3 comments:
Hang in there Judi! I also have a case of bitchiness today. Mainly because Hubby does! How dare he!! Anyway, I think we get this way because we get tired of the lion's share of shit to do. By the time the holidays are over we are exhausted.
So cheer up!! Get out the chai tea later and sit and relax. Lord knows you deserve it. Start planning what is going to go on that clean slate of yours!!
Jody
There is the Judi we all know and love. Welcome back dear friend. I think you described my refrigerator too. I can't get another morsel of food in there if I tried. Today is my day to clean it out and make it presentable.
Hugs,
Kathy
Hope you find something solid to stand on AND the ability to fly.
As for the age thing, just wait until your kids start turning 30. :/ There's nothing like being a widow with a 29 year old kid to make ya feel just a little old. But I'm not just getting older, I'm getting better, too! ; )
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