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Tuesday, November 27, 2012

I don't miss the Twinkies.......

because I have pumpkin pie and pumpkin ice cream and lots of whipped cream and lots of cranberry dunkers and a full container of white chocolate walnut biscotti and an unopened tin of peppermint bark....... 

Even if my treat pantry wasn't overflowing with all those wonderful things, I still wouln't miss  those Twinkies.
Those little cakes never did anything for me.  
Oh sure, I ate them....who didn't? 
But, did I enjoy eating them? 
Can't say that I did. 
Which brings me to a whole 'nother point!
How many things have we eaten that we really didn't enjoy yet we ate them anyhow....over and over again?
Did I  not get it that I deserve to eat things that I enjoy?
Did I not understand that foods we do not enjoy still have calories and fat and other stuff that's not so great?
When I think back to the weight gaining years and the weight fighting years, it's hard for me to imagine that I was that consumed with eating that I ate things that did not bring me pleasure.  In fact, eating them only brought me more misery (in more ways than one....).
Now, before anyone thinks that I do not have compassion for all of those people who are out of work because of this Hostess mess, let me clear----I care.  In fact, I care quite a lot.   It's my job to care about employment and the job market.   Plus.....Hostess Fruit Pies got me through my first pregnancy!  For that, I am thankful.  Those apple pies tasted amazing heated up in the microwave and covered in ice cream everyday at 10 am.   And, I wonder why I gained a wopping 80 pounds.....

Having just come off a food-infused weekend and dealing with all the remnants of that food-infused weekend, I am reflecting on how I could have cut back on all the food  to help me better prepare for the next 6 weeks of more food.  First, I should say that I did not really eat all that much.   I was too busy shopping for it and preparing it and cooking it and serving it to sit down and eat it.   So, I would say that Thanksgiving #1 and Thanksgiving #2 were not issues.   What is the issue is what I am left with now that those events are over and done with.   Now that all the work is done and my body and mind are taking a quick breather.....this is when the problems begin.   All of a sudden.....I want to eat all the food that's crammed into and teetering on top of each other in my fridge.  Well, not all of it.  But, quite a bit of it.  First of's good food.  Secondly, I slaved over it.... so yes, I deserve to eat it....right?  And, thirdly, I feel horrible wasting all of it.   It's economically wrong and it feels so disrespectful.
How can I stop the excessiveness of holiday foods and holiday cooking so that I am not back in this same spot in a few weeks?   
It feels like a viscous cycle since there are certain foods that are associated with holidays that I feel compelled to have in the house.   And, I truly do love the entire process of planning and cooking for special occasions and serving my loved ones foods that make them feel special and exude a certain feeling of comfort for them.   I think I am going to have to dig pretty deep to find a healthy balance here.  Ugh.  Just when I thought I could take a rest from all the planning.....

Geez......didn't I start out this posting by talking about Twinkies?
Now I've got myself so stressed that I might need a Twinkie!! 

1 comment:

Jody V said...

I am feeling every letter of this post. I just couldn't put it into such good words!