Judi needs a martini.
Where is a cute bartender with a martini shaker when you need him?
We're 6 days into 2011 and I am having withdraw from 2010.
I miss the good old days of the old year when there was no pressure to make resolutions or change your life or clean the slate.
It was what it was. We had to live with it.
Kicking off a new year with all of it's fanfare and talk about what we should do different or change or improve while we still have to deal with everyday life just makes me tired and worn out.
It doesn't feel bright and shiney and new.
It feels overwhelming and unfair and quite disturbing.
It's giving me a headache, a queasy stomach and the burning desire to go back to bed and pull the covers over my head and just stay there until the pressure to make resolutions is off.
Yes, this morning I am feeling mighty shakey and wee bit wired.
Returning to post holiday life this week....while it's still Christmas all around Judiland (i.e. every decoration is still in it's place!)....has been a bit of a bear.
Everything that was deemed "let's do it after the holidays" has now come to haunt me.
At work--there are meetings upon meetings and projects on top of projects.
At home--there's appointments to be made, projects to tackle and lists that need to be looked at again.
And, let's not even mention the stacks of china and linens and crystal that needs put away.
Or the fact that the stockings are still hung by the chimney with care, Santa Claus is still hanging out on the porch and the Christmas tree is still twinkling away.
And, please, let's not even discuss the little weight gain or the fear of no more lab band fills.
No, let's not even go there.
As I climb out of my morning fog and get ready to walk out into the cold, harsh morning, I am reminded that a new year is here and I have yet to even consider making any resolutions.
Maybe that's what's got me feeling rather pissed off and out of sorts this morning.
Maybe it has nothing to do with anything but the fact that I just don't like the whole idea of having to overhaul everything when I have so much else to do.
I don't want to make resolutions or promises that I have no idea if I can keep or not.
I am sick to death of hearing about how freeing a new year is.
Clean slate, my ass.
There's no clean slate. Everything else is still there.
And, I am telling you right here and now, if I have to listen to one more TV ad or read one more headline or hear one more comment about how to lose weight this year, manage your money this year, get your life in order this year or make your world a peachy keen place this year, I am going to throw my fully decorated Christmas tree and every piece of garland and bow and left over sausages and cookies into the middle of the street and set them all on fire as I sing angry 1970's protester songs.
That'll show 'em.
Maybe I just need a martini.
Thank God for Martini night.
Now I know why we declared every Thursday night Martini night.
Somehow, back in 2010, I realized that by Thursday I usually need one.
I was so self-aware back in 2010.
Life was so much easier in 2010.
Perhaps the first Martini night of 2011 will put it all into a much better perspective.....