because I've been talking!
Well..to be more precise....I've been blogging....
This posting marks my 500th blog entry.
You bet your sweet ass it's my 500th posting.
My first grade teacher, Mrs. Darby--rest her soul--was right....I am a chatterbox.
When I realized it was my 500th post (Blogger told me, I don't keep count), I wanted music to play. Special music. A song of my own. There, in the early morning stillness that is the part of the day that I claim for my own--I wanted to laugh and then I wanted to cry and then I wanted to tell you all about it. That, my friend, is what writing is all about.
Writing for people to read.....
That little girl who filled spiral note book after spiral notebook with tales and stories that no one read--that is what she wanted to do. That womanchild who dreamed of writing books but didn't really know what that meant--that is what she wanted to do. That young woman who majored in English and was forced to write poetry that no one read--that is what she wanted to do. And, that new mother who filled pages and pages with letters to her children before they could even read--that is what she wanted to do. All these words that fill my head, fill my heart and fill my soul are what I always wanted and needed to share. And, now, I do.
Yes, I always found a way to write. But, now I have found a way to share my words. And, I've done it 500 times.
And--not only have I managed to write something that is so-my-own and I actually have people who read what I'm writing, but I've also managed to lose 92 pounds along the way. Through the miracle of medical science, timing and technology, I have somehow found a way to put the two things that matter so much in my life together--the two things that always alluded me--and somehow made them one. Dreams can come true.
It's as if I've always written this blog, I've always told these stories, I've always reached inside myself and thought of something--anything--to say....just to hear myself talk and to reach out to those people who want to listen. It's as much a part of me as my Lapband! This milestone has taken my breath away. I'm 50 years old and I'm finally doing what I always wanted to do and I lost almost 100 pounds. And you've all been a part of it....500 times over.
It's all so amazing.....