Thursday, September 3, 2009
Uh-Oh, it's September......
I'm a little behind here.....
I sniffled my way through June,
Planned, partied and vacationed my way through July,
Cried my way through August....
And if I let myself, I may just let myself bypass September.
That's not the Judi I know.
Maybe it's time to get with the program, put the pedal to the metal, rev up the engines and run out of the gate. If I've learned nothing at all these past 50 years--at the very least--I learned this....tomorrow is right around the corner and each day after that comes whether you want it to or not. That's if you're lucky....I guess.
Over the past few weeks, I've received more words of wisdom, more pieces of advice and more than my share of knowing looks than ever before. I mean--let's face it--I've been through several other major life things over the years. But never before---even during severe times--have I received such an outpouring of support and empathy as I have now. Even last night--when I went to yet another funeral home with my aunt--I was the recipient of several sympathetic looks, a few hugs and many offerings of support. All of this because my daughter went off to college? Yes.
Here's why--it's called motherlove. Everyone gets it, everyone knows what it is and everyone understands just how deep it runs. There's nothing quite like it. They all know exactly how I feel. I just lost the best job I ever had. And, they know that it's all my fault. I did my job well--I raised my daughter to leave. That is what a mother does. We give them wings so they fly.
Yeah, alright....I'm not quite there yet. I haven't quite embraced this whole ideology. Sure, I completely understand it and I even support it for crying out loud. But, let's face it--I would rather be able to turn back the clock right now than come to terms with all this dribble about wings and flying. I'm going to take just a few more days of this selfish behavior and get out all of my tears and angst. I deserve it.
Then, when I am done....well.....I don't know what the hell I'm going to do but I think you might want to stick around for the ride....
Happy September.....my education will soon begin.
As soon as I stop all this nonsense.