Shopping for jeans will do it every time......

Traveling pants? Shit, I had them long before they were even a best selling book and a hit movie. My pants traveled from size 8 to size 16 to size 22 in record speed. Believe me, my pants were traveling. Long before traveling pants became a thing. Now I'm at this vortex of a size that is okay and a size that I am salivating over. Believe me, I am not lusting after a size 6. I'll leave that to the under 50 crowd. And, believe me...I get it that I have lots of excess skin that I have to tuck into jeans. But, honestly....I really want to stop my pants from traveling. I want them to park in one place....




It's time I get serious about getting the rest of this weight off. You heard it here folks. Now that I've told you, you need to hold me to it. It's in your hands. Yep, it's time I stop living as a -80 pound woman and start looking towards being a -100 pound woman. It's not that I have been taking things lightly. But, I haven't been exactly as planful or as careful with my food choices or as active as I should be. And, I think I discovered too many foods that work just fine with my band. For one thing---I've become a fan of these small cheddar cheese and carmel (2 different flavors) rice cakes from Aldi's....cheap and oh so delish! They taste like air....nothing to them! And, my band doesn't even know they are passing through. So, I'm carrying bags with me. Now, that's not good behavior for someone who wants and needs to lose another 20 pounds. Yeah,it's not like I'm eating bags of Dorito's. But, damn I'd like to (and I'll bet I COULD). Plus, I think I've slipped into a few other bad habits as well. Vegging on the couch (but oooh I'm so exhausted), putting full fat salad dressing on my salads (but don't I deserve it?) and having a glass of wine during the week (but isn't it good for my blood pressure?). Add those all together and I'm not doing what I should be doing with the gift (my lapband) that I've been given. Plain and simple. I'm messing with my band. And that ain't smart.

It's probably a good thing that my lap band and my weight loss are not currently at the center stage of my life or the bane of my existence. I've achieved what I've probably wanted all along. Not to worry about my weight and dieting 24/7/365. It is definitely a good thing. I mean, being comfy in my own body is a great achievement. But, there's still this thing. The jeans. Yes, it's all about the jeans.