Just another manic Monday........

To fill or not to fill.....that is the question....

Tomorrow I go in for my 6 week band check. And, I'm all a-flutter about whether my Lapband needs re-adjusted (filled) or not. We're less than 2 weeks from the world's biggest foodfest and I'm caught between caution and caution. Caution #1 is that I really want a nice restriction going into a major food holiday with several weeks of food events following it. I mean--yes, I want to eat. But, I don't want to scarf down everything on the damn table and then conduct midnight refrigerator raids. And, caution #2 is that an overfill can be quite serious. Painful and possibly damaging. So, I don't want that. How do I know? What should I do?

So....here's the thing. A few posts ago, I went on and on about my "sweet spot"...that magical place in a Lapbander's world where your beloved band is at it's perfect restriction. It's the holy grail of Lapbanding. It's Oz. It's at the end of the yellow brick road. It's the ultimate destination. Yes, without too much more explanation...let me just say...it's the place you want to be. The place you've been striving for. It's a mental-physical state of being that is oh so sought after in the landscape of a Lapbander's life. And, once you're there---you are supposed to stay there. Right?

Well, I guess sweet spots are like anything else....they only last so long. Or, maybe not. I'm not so sure. You see, last week, I felt it. This week, I don't know. Or, last week I thought I felt it and this week, I don't think I do. Or, maybe I wasn't really at my sweet spot...and I just thought I was. Or, maybe I just said I was because I wanted to be. Maybe I was faking it. Yes, it's very perplexing this sweet spot thing. Sort of like orgasms, I suppose.

So...the question is--have I outgrown my sweet spot and do I need to get re-sweet-spotted? Or, is my sweet-spot just fine and I'm just looking for a reason to have stress because that's what I do on Mondays? Maybe I just needed a Monday melt-down to kick off the week and I don't have a sweet spot issue.
Or, maybe I do.....