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Monday, November 17, 2008

Just another manic Monday........

To fill or not to fill.....that is the question....

Tomorrow I go in for my 6 week band check. And, I'm all a-flutter about whether my Lapband needs re-adjusted (filled) or not. We're less than 2 weeks from the world's biggest foodfest and I'm caught between caution and caution. Caution #1 is that I really want a nice restriction going into a major food holiday with several weeks of food events following it. I mean--yes, I want to eat. But, I don't want to scarf down everything on the damn table and then conduct midnight refrigerator raids. And, caution #2 is that an overfill can be quite serious. Painful and possibly damaging. So, I don't want that. How do I know? What should I do?

So....here's the thing. A few posts ago, I went on and on about my "sweet spot"...that magical place in a Lapbander's world where your beloved band is at it's perfect restriction. It's the holy grail of Lapbanding. It's Oz. It's at the end of the yellow brick road. It's the ultimate destination. Yes, without too much more explanation...let me just say...it's the place you want to be. The place you've been striving for. It's a mental-physical state of being that is oh so sought after in the landscape of a Lapbander's life. And, once you're there---you are supposed to stay there. Right?

Well, I guess sweet spots are like anything else....they only last so long. Or, maybe not. I'm not so sure. You see, last week, I felt it. This week, I don't know. Or, last week I thought I felt it and this week, I don't think I do. Or, maybe I wasn't really at my sweet spot...and I just thought I was. Or, maybe I just said I was because I wanted to be. Maybe I was faking it. Yes, it's very perplexing this sweet spot thing. Sort of like orgasms, I suppose.

So...the question is--have I outgrown my sweet spot and do I need to get re-sweet-spotted? Or, is my sweet-spot just fine and I'm just looking for a reason to have stress because that's what I do on Mondays? Maybe I just needed a Monday melt-down to kick off the week and I don't have a sweet spot issue.
Or, maybe I do.....

5 comments:

Founder, Organizer, Mayor and Chief Cook And Bottle Washer of the Anger Management Girls. said...

Or maybe you have a bunch of sweet spots becuase your so damn sweet!!!
What is perfect one week is not necessarily perfect for another week. Sort of like the perfect November day is not the same as a perfect June day. Both perfect, but 65, sunny and a bit breezy would certainly not be as perfect a day in June that it is in November.

Kathy said...

I know what you mean. That fleeting sweet spot seems to come and go. I have noticed mine is getting tighter again. I am so glad I didn't get a slight fill at my last appointment. Good luck with yours Judi.

Jody V said...

Oh Judi -

My sista from anotha motha...Dear Lord I am at the same cross road!! I don't know what to do either. Let me know what you decide. I go on Thursday for my check up.

Jody

LBMadam said...

HIJudi!
I wanted to tell you (and Jody & Kathy) that your concerns is really important at this stage of your Lapbanded Life and you NEED to discuss this with a trusted fill tech. An overfill happens more NOW (after 1 yr or more) than ever before because how difficult it is to figure out. I URGE you to tell the tech (or whoever does your fills) everything and REALLY make sure they take the time to get it right. An overfill is not evident until several hours (or days) afterwards and then you are back getting an unfill (NOT pleasant!) It can be damaging and a very painful thing. An overfill causes swelling and pain that might need to have taken care of in addtion to having your band 100% unfilled for rest and healing. NOT SOMETHING TO MESS WITH GIRls! This happened to me in August (1 year after surgery) and ruined my WHOLE VACATION!!!!!
Don't let it happen to you! I read your blog (and Jody's now Kathys too) and was happy to see your comments so that I can help someone avoid the same wreck I had. Good Luck!
Tanya (LbMadam on LBtalk)
bTW: LOVE YOUR BLOG JUDI! YOu should do this professionally!

shirasimcha said...

I have a question about these fills as I am a pre-bander. I have Highmark if that helps but my question is...are these fills covered by insurance???